these two words goes just right for me.
have been thinking whether i go home today or stay for another week. have been fighting my usge to just hop in in the next bus i see on the street.
wanna go home and just do my appointments and stuff back in bacolod or salt my butt for the next 2 boring days here in hinobaan.
u know what i wanna do..? as in right at this moment?
GO HOME... bye!
just one of my nothingness. jiji!
ficle mind, sickled feelings!!
haven't been able to write an entry for such a long time and i have just plenty of things i want to say, yet the irony is that i have no enough words to exactly tell them.
id like to say that as of the moment, one thing that tops my mind is a guy!
half of me says that he is not worh a single thought from me and another part of myself says he does. obviously, you know which part of me wins coz im writing about him now.
from my last post, i was talking about how my trip went from hinobaan right? well i was back a month and a half ago and i have been rendering my volunteer service in a municipal hospital here.
my first 3 weeks was an awful time for me but with the help of few kind people io met, i made a couple of friends and wallah! i am alive and well and so coping!
just to make it short, out of no choice since manong christian is right at my back, might be reading my post, i met a guy.
he isnt the guy i usually hav a crushy feelings on, he's just so out of my league but maybe because i am missing the feeling of being in a relationship, and of course, he's fun top be with, i fell for him. ill continue tomorrow! haha! the place i am in, ta linda's comp shop, is filled with other users and... i just wanna get out of here...now!
id like to say that as of the moment, one thing that tops my mind is a guy!
half of me says that he is not worh a single thought from me and another part of myself says he does. obviously, you know which part of me wins coz im writing about him now.
from my last post, i was talking about how my trip went from hinobaan right? well i was back a month and a half ago and i have been rendering my volunteer service in a municipal hospital here.
my first 3 weeks was an awful time for me but with the help of few kind people io met, i made a couple of friends and wallah! i am alive and well and so coping!
just to make it short, out of no choice since manong christian is right at my back, might be reading my post, i met a guy.
he isnt the guy i usually hav a crushy feelings on, he's just so out of my league but maybe because i am missing the feeling of being in a relationship, and of course, he's fun top be with, i fell for him. ill continue tomorrow! haha! the place i am in, ta linda's comp shop, is filled with other users and... i just wanna get out of here...now!
made love with nature
went to hinobaan 4days ago and arrived home late last night.
i cant help the green things, the muddy road, the rain and how the cold wind felt flashing in my mind.
i just want to share how my trip going home went.
instead of complaining that my whole 6 hour travel by the bus was boring and life-draining, let me tell you something how i made use of it.
the bus left the hinobaan terminal at exactly 11:30 in the morning. i was taking naps beacause i was so sleepy. i didnt get a decent sleep last night. still dozing, i realized that the rain was soaking the arm part of my jacket.
i straightened up from my seat and looked outside. we were on top of the mountain having a long winding ride and tell you, sitting there alone beside the window was tiresome but thank God, the greenery alongside the road was something enjoyable to watch. the plants looked healthy under the rain shower. it was refreshing..
the fog that seemed to dance in the air was captivating as it hovered the trees below the cliff on the left side of the narrow road.
the sound of the crickets muted all other sounds around and it made me think of my childhood when hearing this sound and staring at the setting sun mattered to me.
sitting there on my seat, i let my head out of the window a little, just enough for the rain to freely kiss my face. rain drops were freezing with the fresh air touching my skin.
i inhaled a few times filling my lungs to my content. it sent me a cool damp feeling and it was something i would want to do again and again.
the "kundoktor" (ticketing guy) must had been thinking why was i doing that for he was like stealing glances at me from then and again. frankly, it was bothersome but i didnt let it stop me.
everything was quite a scene to ponder that life isn't that bad after all. there are things in life that cant be bought and these are the little things that we dont take the time to mind because of our tight schedules.
above anything else, i was just glad to have experienced such moment.
i cant help the green things, the muddy road, the rain and how the cold wind felt flashing in my mind.
i just want to share how my trip going home went.
instead of complaining that my whole 6 hour travel by the bus was boring and life-draining, let me tell you something how i made use of it.
the bus left the hinobaan terminal at exactly 11:30 in the morning. i was taking naps beacause i was so sleepy. i didnt get a decent sleep last night. still dozing, i realized that the rain was soaking the arm part of my jacket.
i straightened up from my seat and looked outside. we were on top of the mountain having a long winding ride and tell you, sitting there alone beside the window was tiresome but thank God, the greenery alongside the road was something enjoyable to watch. the plants looked healthy under the rain shower. it was refreshing..
the fog that seemed to dance in the air was captivating as it hovered the trees below the cliff on the left side of the narrow road.
the sound of the crickets muted all other sounds around and it made me think of my childhood when hearing this sound and staring at the setting sun mattered to me.
sitting there on my seat, i let my head out of the window a little, just enough for the rain to freely kiss my face. rain drops were freezing with the fresh air touching my skin.
i inhaled a few times filling my lungs to my content. it sent me a cool damp feeling and it was something i would want to do again and again.
the "kundoktor" (ticketing guy) must had been thinking why was i doing that for he was like stealing glances at me from then and again. frankly, it was bothersome but i didnt let it stop me.
everything was quite a scene to ponder that life isn't that bad after all. there are things in life that cant be bought and these are the little things that we dont take the time to mind because of our tight schedules.
above anything else, i was just glad to have experienced such moment.
so sick
-catharsis: that's what i do in my blogs.
-i have never felt so tired since i graduated from college.
-i feel like i am being wean off from comfort and i feel terribly tired of life.
-every number to my age is like aticking bomb countdown.
-everytime i think about what i must do, i feel like being forced yet i can do nothing about it.
-have youever felt so exhausted?
-i am.
-i heard,stop complaining and just do what you i have to do.
-i sawin one of the advertisements on tv that one must have a goal to keep going in life, what shall be mine?
-i received a tx msg from my friend, zoe, that saying ur alright to hide the pain and act like u r strong is also one suave way of dying insane.
-i feel like i amnear getting there.
-i am suffocated in being an adult!
-can i justhate have life?
-sigh..
-i have never felt so tired since i graduated from college.
-i feel like i am being wean off from comfort and i feel terribly tired of life.
-every number to my age is like a
-everytime i think about what i must do, i feel like being forced yet i can do nothing about it.
-have you
-i am.
-i heard,
-i saw
-i received a tx msg from my friend, zoe, that saying ur alright to hide the pain and act like u r strong is also one suave way of dying insane.
-i feel like i am
-i am suffocated in being an adult!
-can i just
-sigh..
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