16 november 2008 / 2pm
i have just finished my shower when i remembered preparing something for tomorrow's class.
i then realized that today is your last day being my student...i really feel sad that i started crying.
i thought, i am emotionally stronger this time.
i thought i am used to saying goodbyes to my student that i won't cry when you leave.
i thought i won't be broken hearted just like i felt when amie and calvin left.
i was wrong.
as what you said before, you are a jealous student and friend.
you may had been jealous of my other students because you thought i like them more compare to you, but you know what?
you are the closest student to me. you're not just a student, i treated you more as a dear friend.
i have always been honest to you with my thoughts and feelings. i can tell you what i think and feel.
when someone told me that you wanted to leave my class to attend 1:4 class because that would make you happy, i felt sad.
so when you asked me last friday (14 november 08) if i want you to leave my class or not,
no second thoughts, i told you that you could change my class...
though i know that you won't leave if only i told you not to.
i just want you to know that i never wanted you to leave.
i never said yes beacuse i dont want you in my class anymore.
i said yes because i want you to enjoy your stay here. i just want to be happy
...though it's really really hard for me.
i don't know what's the use of this diary,
but, maybe i just want to let you know that you have been special to me.
maybe, i'd be so jealous with your other teachers too.
i am afraid that you will forget all the memories we had.
i am scared that you will forget about me because i know that you are forgetful.
chalga.